Where it happened: His house
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 5
Category: Straight
I was so nervous that night that, as I walked around the block to Cody’s house, I couldn’t stop my hands shaking inside the warm faux-fur lining of my parka. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to, just that I had never been this nervous before. I wanted Cody to make love to me, and tonight he would. We had been planning it for a couple of weeks now, in time for our 1 year anniversary. Cody had asked me before, but, when I told him I wasn’t ready, he respected that- just one of the many things I love about him. On his birthday last month we had been making out on his bed when I decided to tell him I was ready. I know I was crying- I think he was too even though he won’t admitt it. And somehow those past few weeks had become a blur, and now I was approaching his house, taking in every fine detail in the pale moonlight.I looked over towards the swing on the front porch- that was where he waits for me every time I come over. I then looked over towards our oak tree, where he kissed me for the first time, and we always secretly use as a short-cut through his bedroom window. Taking a deep breath, I ran across the road and on to his driveway, and then began to climb up that beautiful oak tree. I reached the top and then smiled nervously,at his note on the open windowstill;
Mia, you look beautiful, more beautiful than I have ever seen you-(And thats saying something)How do I know? You look beautiful every day! Mia, tonight there is nothing in the world more beautiful than you, and when Im kissing you goodnight tonight than i’ll know for sure there never will be, I love you
I picked up the note and crawled inside, slowly laying down on his bed and closing my eyes, thinking about him. He must have gone out of his room for a moment, so I lay there waiting for him to get back to his room. I lay there for about a minute until I heard the door slowly close. Then I felt his warm,bare arms move around mine and his gentle hands caressing my hair
” Did you get my note” he asked
“Yeah… Do you really think that?”
“Mia, I know it. I love you and I want this with you. I want you”
I slowly opened my eyes, to see him laying next to me, his deep brown eyes staring into mine. I reached towards his bare chest and began tracing the old scars spread across his back. He used to never tell me that he cut himself , I didn’t find out until last year when I caught him cutting in his room after his mom died- She had been dying of cancer for over a year, and he hadn’t been able to handle it. Thats why he started in the first place, but he never cut anymore, I think mostly because of how much it hurts me. Cody looked away from me, towards the ceiling.
” I wish they faded away”
” I don’t”
He looked at me, surprised
“Thats not you, anymore, Cody, your not like that now, the scars don’t matter- it’s you”
” I just wish I never did that, It hurts you”
” That was a long time ago”
” I know, but when you saw them for the first time…”
I hated that memory too, he had thought I’de gone home and he couldn’t take all the pain… He cut in front of me, not deep, but as we cried in each others arms that night it’de felt a million times worse.
” I never will never hurt you again” He vowed
I responded only by kissing him, and, as the kisses gradually became more desperate,our breathing more laboured, and he took off my parka, then my blouse, then my bra… I could see the hunger in his eyes, and realised how much I wanted this, how much he wanted this. Our kissing intensified and he slowly pulled off my remaining clothing, leaving me excited but undoubtabley nervous, as I had never been fully naked around Cody before, or any guy as a matter of fact. He smiled at my nervousness, and met it with the most amazing look, as if I was the most beautiful girl on the planet.
“Mia, you are beautiful”
As I smiled back at him, he kissed me all over with such a need for my body I knew he could hardly wait, making me feel amazing, tracing patterns on my skin and whispering my name in my ear, and when finally I pulled his boxers off and we lay together, our breathing laboured and our bodies unmoving, waiting in awe of what we were about to do. When he spoke his voice was nervous, as if unsure of what to say.
” Are you ready”
I looked deep into his eyes and responded with the only possible answer;
” Yes, Cody, I want you to make love to me”
I heard him fumbling with the condom, and then he lay over me, breathing rapidly and stroking my hair
“I love you”
“And I love you”
With these words, He lent over to kiss me, and I felt him enter me, stoping for a moment with a look of concern on his face, mixed along with one of pure love.
“Are you okay, am I hurting you?”
Truthfully, he did hurt a little but I hardly noticed, all I felt was the warmth of his skin against mine.
” It’s okay, Your not hurting me”
” Good, Mia I never want to hurt you”
It was moments like these that made me realise how much I loved him, as I felt him thrusting inside me and fluttering his eyelids closed in ecstacy,as I was, whispering;” I love you” in my ear, and stoping with that loving concerned look if he thought I was in any pain… When he came around 5 minutes later, he pulled out and we layed together, cuddling until we fell to sleep together.
This all happened when we were 15 and now were both 18 and still together, and last week he asked me to marry him under the beautiful oak outside his house. We both cried the same way we did together the morning after we made at love for the first time, when we realised that we’d lost our virginity to each other and how special it had been…
I’ll love you forever Cody <3 xoxoxox
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