Where it happened: Decatur, IL
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 3
Category: Straight
I was 17, he was 26. I had just gotten out of a year long mentally and physically abuse relationship when I met him. Clifford (Cleo to those who know him) stole my heart the first time I laid eyes on him. His gorgeous brown eyes, his smooth chocolate skin, and his stocky build were the sexiest I had ever seen. We were at a mutual friend’s house when we met. I had just moved into my very first apartment, and decided to go over there and relax and have a few drinks.
Cleo and I started talking, and we hit it off right away. I had never felt this way about anyone, least of all the guy I had just broken up with. Somehow we got on the subject of him, and I started pouring my heart and soul out to Cleo. He gave me a shoulder to gry on and asked me if I wanted to go get something to eat. I agreed, so we left.
After dinner, I asked him if he would like to see my new apartment, and he said he would like that. So, we went there. As soon as we got in the door, he took me in his arms and kissed me. My body just started to melt. We made it to the couch, and that is where we ended up for the night. I didn’t feel right having sex that night, so we just slept there, holding one another.
This went on for about 3 weeks, till one night I decided I was ready. He had moved out of his apartment and back to his mama’s house, but pretty much lived at mine. The only time we were apart was when one or the other was at work. Well, that night I had it all planned out. I made him a candle light dinner (which he loved) and put rose petals all over the bed. When dinner was done, I took him by the hand and led him to the bedroom. I had placed 24 white candles (for the days we had been together) around the room and lit them for a soft, romantic look. He picked me up and carried me to the bed, kissing me all the way. He placed me upon it, and slowly undressed me and then himself. That night was the most special night of my life. I truly loved him, and still do.
About 4 months into the relationship, he moved about 45 minutes away due to a better job offer. He still came down every weekend and visited me though. We were truly in love. One morning, about 5am, he called me. I was happy to hear his voice, considering I hadn’t talked to him all day. He told me he loved me, and I told him the same. He then asked me to marry him, and I got scared. I told him I would think it over and call him back in 5 minutes.
I never called him back. Then, I moved out of state 1 month later.
It was the biggest mistake of my life. Here it is, 4 years later, and I still think of him every day. I wonder what it would have been like if I had said yes. I wonder what he is doing today. I wish I could just talk to him. So, when you find that someone, don’t let them go. There’s a reason they are your first – think about it.
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