Where it happened: My Basement
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 5
Category: Straight
My first time was not at all like I had planned. He and I had been dating for 6 months, and we had fooled around before. This isn;t about my first “sexual experience” but my first time have penetration. We were kissing, watching a movie. It was Juno. It was the part where she was carrying the couch and I was starring at the TV. We started kissing, and he whispered, “I love you.” My family was upstairs, but no one could hear us. We kept kissing as he slowly took my shirt off, and his. He was perfect, amazing, beautiful. I was terrified. I wasn’t sure if I was ready, and I didn’t know how to stop it. My pants were being unbuttoned, when I said,
“I don’t know if I can do this.”
“Just trust me baby, it will be fine.”
“Please, I’m just not ready, I’m not sure.”
He kissed me, assuring me everything would be okay. I still said “No.” he kissed harder, and I was getting scared.
“Please i’m not ready, I don’t want to do this.” He put my hands above my head, holding them down. He was a lot heavier than I was. I couldn’t move, I couldn’t scream, I could only cry. What would my parent’s think if I yelled, at the time, that was what mattered. Looking back on it, I should have yelled, I should have called for help. Should have tried harder, but I can’t change that now. All i could do was cry, and stare up at the tv, at Juno. Starring at this pregnant teenager on the screen, thinking about how she wanted to have sex for the first time with that guy, and thinking about how I wanted to be doing anything but that.
When it was over, he rolled off me, and I got up walked away and locked myself in the furnace room. I held my knees close to my chest, and I cried even harder.
“You said you wanted to. You said you love me” was all he could repeat from the doorway. But all I could say back was,
“No I didn’t say I wanted to, you did.”
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