Where it happened: Friend's House, party
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 6
Category: Straight
Now that I think about it I don’t know where to start. I had so many almost first times that never happened to do with the fact that I thought that when I would actually do it I would change in some way, that I would be a different person from whom I was. Maybe it’s the media or books or whatever that made me think that but I was expecting something special, new and entertaining. I did get that but in a very different wat than I was expecting.
The guy that I slept with was I believe 4-5 years older than me. I got to know him a year before we actually had sex but I did not pay any attention to him back then because I was together with somebody else at that time. I was a child, I don’t feel so grown up now either but at least I can say I stepped up from who I was before.. Anyways, my best friend had a party and I always had friends who were older than me, one year two years, 6 years etc.. It’s just who I am, I find it very difficult to get along with people younger than me or my age.. (not all but most of them) The party was great, the guy came and then my friend told me that the guy found out that I was attending and so he came as well. He remembered me from that year ago. That was very exciting. That night I was very shy and secure at the same time. I love to flirt and I know how to be with/around guys. I never do anything passed fingering tho, no BJ or anything… And I was young so that seemed very inappropriate. Although I met him there and then the second time in my life, it was one of the greatest nights I have ever had. He was so nice to me it’s unbelievable, I am used to the attention all the time but this was over the top. He was so hot, his body just like from a picture, he was perfect and I was 15. Ive met so many good looking guys but he was just something else, I knew he was a player but that is what attracted me to him for the first time in my life. I forgot all my morals and knew what was about to happen. He knew how old I was and he didnt want to do anything if I didnt want to but I did. Remember I said I wanted something special and so on.. well I didnt exactly think about that, that night at all. I knew what was about to happen but I didnt care as mush as i did. I saw sex as sex, nothing special, nothing more nothing less. Maybe it was becuase I understood that I am so attracted to this guy who can get any girl he wanted to and he came to this party to see me because he saw me before, a year ago.. this was not only exciting but unbelievable that I made such a good impresion of myself. And I felt a duty of some sort as well that I would have to do it because Im expected to, since I was with him the whole night and he sang me serenades and we danced and he was so super nice that I felt I should give him something in return. I ofcourse told him that I had sex before and didnt want to talk about our age or anything. We talked for a long time at first and I was wearing a very conservative long sleaved pyjama top and pants.. 😀 Its funny when I think about it but I think that is what turned him on, me being so sure about self and so innocent..People who thought who knew me never would of thought that my first time would be when I was 15, almost 16. But being who I was, I didnt thrust too many people and always knew what I wanted. Not even my best friend knew that, that night was supposed to be my official first time cuz no body felt the need to ask me, they were all sure Ive done it before.
So wer laying there and I look at him, trying to figure him out. Thinking about his experience and his skills and why the hell is he here with me. I know I am pretty but still me being 15 with that gorgeous guy was unbelievable. He was telling me how beautiful I am and that he has never seen anything like that before, that Im beautiful without makeup and Im so smart and so on. Things I heard before but his eyes were different, I could see he was really amaized, so was I. I forgot about the importance of what was to happen and being as shy as I actually found myself there and then, was patiently waiting for something to happen. I of course had no clue what to expect anymore but I thrusted his skills and was waiting for the fireworks to come.. Yes… for about 20 min he wanted to be sure I have done it before and even thought I felt bad for not telling him I didnt feel that bad to not do it. We switched the lights off and he took off my white silk pyjama pants, looked at me and said that he likes what he’s seeing. He’s a very sexual and alluring guy, he knows what he’s doing. And I wasnt even worried about what I was supposed to do because even though everything happened totally in the wrong way, place and time than I had ever imagined I was just going with the flow, calm as ever. Unlucky me his cock was super huge and I freaked for a moment. then all of the thoughts came to my head ‘shit what if i start bleeding”, ”what iif it hurts and i start to cry” ” what it its obvious i hadnt done it” and ”what if he doesnt even come in”.. but i knew me, What I can do best is to control myself and however and in whichever way make it possible. I knew I was going to have sex and I was going to enjoy it. AND I DID. It did hurt because of the size. and because I was a virgin marry. But I was holding my teeth together and almost crying for a long time. I experienced so many different things. We had sex for very long and I didnt want to stop even though the ways we were to accomplish it all were excrutiating… He put my leg high up and me being not ultra mega flexible had to suffer from pain and moan : he thought I was having fun at that time but then I didnt moan because I was having a blast but because I thought I was going to break at some point. then in my head i decided to excersise a lot or have sex more often because excersising kind of goes into sex category. I ”suffered” the pain for about an hour maybe a little less then good old missionary position did the trick. I did not expect to cum but I did and that happened because I was very relieved I didnt have to do acrobatic trics anymore. I had many orgasms before which were not achieved by an intercourse and I heard that women go through life and never achieve orgasm so knowing me liking experiments I had to do something. I knew what to expect but the orgasm I finally got with the guy was nothing like I have experienced in other ways. Which was very pleasing because I got all my 3 things I was thinking about (I meantioned them in the begining). Then when we finished we went to sleep and had sex in the morning again. I grew more and more confident after time passed and sex became one of the more important things. My first time experience was harsh and unexpected that turned all my thinking, morals and me around. I lost it for a while and even lost a friend because of that guy later on but even though he caused me so much trouble I do not regret what we did. Cuz in every difficulty lies opportunity and that is why i am who I am today. just wanted to say another thing, if it doesnt match the picture in your imagination dont freak just be sure u actually want to do it before u do it. I think sex is sex unless it’s an emotional thing with the one you really like, than it’s sex that really means something. I thought my first would be with a guy that I wouold be together with or at least know but it wasnt. If i had to do it now i wouldnt because now its much more different again but if i was there again at the same time i would because it was worth it. I had a great first time, a secure first time. I didnt expect to see the guy more but he really did like me so we did start seeing each other but thats not the point. The point is to enjoy your life and learn from your mistakes, look for opportunities and actualy live not exist also make sure you use protection. u dont want a baby or a disease (unless u do want a baby then its different…) .. anyways, live life while u can and have fun; use your brain but follow your heart.
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