This is as true as it can get. I read the stories here all the time and I have this fantasy about how my first time will be. Let me tell you, if anyone can have a beautiful and perfect first time, I salute you. Here is my story. Nothing but the truth. Sorry to disappoint the romantics and those looking for a steamy story.
We have been together for more than 2 years and we have done EVERYTHING (you name it) except for real penetration. We decided to wait, not until we were married, but for the right time. He loves me so much and he means the world to me. Sex was just something for us to enjoy each other more.
So we booked a nice cottage over the weekend by the lake. Everything was perfect, the location, the weather. I had my new G-strings and lace camisole on, he had the condoms ready, the lubes ready. We were all set. Except for one problem. We were both expecting too much and too nervous. I gave him too many handjobs prior to us reaching the cottage that he lost the urge to have sex. I masturbate for him on a very very regular basis, too regular I would say. Bottom line is, he wasn’t as horny as he ought to be and he was frustrated. I blame myself for giving him too much, he blames himself for it.
Nevertheless, I wasn’t very stimulated. He wasn’t very horny and when he finally got very hard (after so many attempts), he went inside me, I was very very wet and well-lubricated, but it HURT LIKE HELL. My vagina felt like it was tearing apart and the more he tried to put it in, the more painful it got. And I was so uncomfortable, I scratched him so badly, he lost it and got soft again. I was in so much pain. We hugged and cuddled. He kept apologising for hurting me. And we decided to try again. This time, I thought I was ready and he thrusted in again. MAN, did it hurt so bad. This went on twice more that night and we gave up.
All we did was cuddle and I loved that so much. He was so understanding and I felt that so what if my first time sucks, it’s not perfect. But nothing has changed and if anything does, I love him so much more, and so does he. We’ll try again soon, after I heal and when he gets his urges back. I won’t touch him for another week. We need a break from all these sexual tensions and trauma. LOL!
So for all of you reading this. Let me tell you something I’ve learnt. It’s not all about the perfect setting, the orgasms, the romance novel, mind-blowing first time. It’s about being comfortable with your partner, laugh at your mistakes and accept things, good or bad. I’m sure we’ll improve with time. I don’t regret my first time with him at all. I love you baby, let’s try again some day.