Where it happened: His house
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 5
Category: Straight
Well, my real name isn’t Sheila to be honest. I changed it because I don’t want someone who knows me to see this. My first time was both wonderful and terrible. Wonderful because of who it happened with, but terrible because of how it happened. I was in 10th grade. My boyfriend was 18 and I was 15 at the time. I know what you’re thinking: “EW he’s a pervert!” He’s not. We really do love each other and he never once pressured me about sex.
We dated for almost three months. He mentioned sex once and I said I wasn’t ready. He never brought it up again. Later I realized that the only reason I wasn’t ready was because I was afraid it would hurt. I knew the pain wouldn’t be any different when I was older, so I told him I was ready. And I really thought I was.
We were alone at his house one day. He started kissing me and undressing me. I was nervous about him seeing me naked (I’m pretty skinny), but he made me feel more comfortable by telling me I was beautiful. He tried to finger me, but it hurt ALOT. I gasped in pain and he asked if I was okay. I said it hurt a little, so he just kissed me some more and didn’t try it again. After awhile of foreplay he asked if I was ready and I said yes. He tried to enter me, but I reminded him to put on a condom. He put one on and tried to enter me again. He couldn’t even the tip in because I was in so much pain. As soon as he saw it was hurting me he stopped trying.
I felt terrible. I was sure he wouldn’t survive a relationship without sex. (Especially because he’s not a virgin.) But he held me and told me that he was wrong to try and have sex with me at such a young age. He apologized for hurting me, and promised he would love me no matter what. So far he’s kept that promise. I’m now 16 and he’s 19. Our relationship is going strong and in less than 2 weeks we’ll have our 1 year anniversary.
We are sexually active. We do pretty much everything except for actual penetration. It’s EQUAL as well. I don’t want you to assume it’s just me giving him blow jobs or something. I really enjoy trying new things with him, and sometimes we try to actually have sex, but are still unsuccessful. I have Vaginismus. It’s a condition that causes a muscle in the pelvic area to close making penetration nearly impossible. This is a psychological condition often times caused by the fear of painful sex.
I love my boyfriend, and even though I’m TECHNICALLY a virgin I don’t think of myself as one. My relationship is wonderful and I never once will regret my choices.
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