Where it happened: at a party
Langauge: english
Sex: Female
Rating: 5
Category: Straight
i was at a party in norway, it was the middle of the night, summer holiday and i was currently extremely drunk. this dude was hitting on me constantly, i was making dry, snide remarks crushing his lame attempts to much amusement for my friends. he eventually gave up and just sat there like a sulking defeated dog next to me. we were all talking and joking for about another hour when i started feeling horribly bored. i thought ‘maybe i should just go for it, why the fuck not.’
for some reason i made a decision that it would be ‘practical’ to have my first time with someone that didnt mean anything- kind of like a trial run. so i turned to him said ‘you still there?’ and he grinned kinda shyly and said ‘havnt moved, no’. i took his hand and asked him to go for a walk with me, which he did without a word. Further down the street we stopped and i turned to him and let him kiss me. we stood there making out for quite some time, i remember being really fascinated by the ‘bulge’ in his pants because i could feel it against my stomache. then i took his hand and lead him up into the woods, i could see he was very surprised by my sudden change. we didnt use protection, and i remember him being very pale but muscular. i had never seen nor touched a penis before. he laid on top of me and it was quite fumbly, my sweater was pulled up and i remember my breasts poking out of my bra, jeans just pulled down and panties aside. i dont remember it as either bad nor good, i know i was aroused but it didnt really feel good either. i remember looking up at the trees over me, thinking (keep in mind i was drunk) ‘am i still a virgin right now?’ because he hadnt finished yet and thinking to myself that he looked like a village idiot making that face. I think he thought i was way more experienced than i was, he asked midway if i liked giving head. it might have been his idea of sexytalk but i remmeber being shocked and repulsed by the question even, and replied “No!!!”. he pulled out before coming, i think he just came on the forest floor, and we got dressed and walked back up to our friends. i realized i had missed the might train so he and his friends had to drive me home, and i did not want him to even know where i lived- i asked him to drop me off 5 minutes away from my home.
next day i remember feeling so sick. i realized that my jacket had the entire forest stuck to its back and that the pushup from my pushup bra was missing, and my friends didnt know where i had gone- so i had a lot of covering up to do. i remember also feeling sick to the stomache about it. of course also from all the drinking but mostly from the experience, and i even thought that i was glad that it was with someone insignificant- that i wouldnt have to feel sick about someone i liked. i remember looking into the mirror wondering if i looked the same and thinking that i was ‘glad it was over with’.
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